Some people make decisions just like that. Some people need to be assured that what they're doing is the right thing..or at least that what they're doing is not wrong! I'm one of those people..and this does not apply to all decisions. Sometimes the biggest decisions of life i can handle without any help and ill need all the help i can get with something as simple as picking out a saree or a dress. The reverse also happens for some decisions. How does one learn to make these decisions by themselves..its not an absolute necessity..but it avoids a lot of confusion! Too many people..too many opinions..and i begin to wonder if i was better of without asking..but i cant seem to do that either.
A friend of mine once said..why are there so many choices in life..why cant everything be decided for us. Like we finish school and our parents tell us to study this particular course in this college. Once that's done they next tell us where to go and what to study and so on. I thought about it then and figured that as confused as we were about what to do after college and as glad as my parents would've been to set my life straight for me, i don't think i could've handled that. Fortunately or unfortunately, as confused as i am..i still want to make my own decisions and know my choices. Right or wrong I'd like to know that i did it right or well..ruined it :) I don't want to blame anybody ten years from now that if not for him or her i would've been blah blah blah..Yes i need help..i do with some things..but that's all i need.
Today..I'm facing one of life's biggest decisions. Its something that is going to make a huge difference in my life and it has to be right. The difference has to be a good difference. I began this decision making process thinking i know what it is and how good it is. I faltered a little in between with many many many doubts and questions and uncertainties. Now I'm becoming a little stronger. I don't know where to go and whom to ask. Not because i don't have people to help me..but simply because i would again have ten differing opinions or at least 3 :P and none of them from someone who really really knows what he's talking about.
I don't know why I'm rambling on and on about this. It probably wont make sense to anybody at all..but i had to rant! And this post is not gonna help me gain clarity i guess..but well..I'm shouting out to the world and that makes me feel slightly better :)
Once my decision is made..i will post it. A good one..hopefully :)
